"We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark, the real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light" - Plato

   

Light of Darkness

It's coming and it's near,

All I have to do is to fight my fear.

Have lost many battles but not yet hope,

And tried success through all: manoeuvre or grope.

Even when enervated I try to be agile,

And in melancholy fool myself with a smile.

The catastrophe of thunder may be bigger or tiny,

But the sun of tomorrow will always be shiny.

Envisioning myself in animated tomorrow and not in buried archive,

Have lost all vitality but still trying to be alive.

Pushing myself forward on the track of hassle and harshness,

As I continue my journey in the Light of Darkness....

Customer is always RIGHT

Nowadays, it seems like time is at it's full pace. As I am on my sales and service training meeting various customers, listening to their complaints and queries, visiting sites etc. is what my day consists of. Albeit the schedule is very tight the work is full of adventure and demand for perseverance. December 5^th was the first day when I went for customer visit along with one of my friend under the guidance of our Senior Manager of Sales and Marketing. After attending our first customer who was a lenient one and just inquired about the machine specifications and for some price negotiation, we moved to attend our second customer. Before entering this customer's office my sir told me " Abhi dekhna bahut maza ayega". As we entered in his office our sir introduced us to him and the adventure began. At first he asked us why we did engineering??? My friend took the challenge and replied to him by giving the justification that he wants to work with big machines. Although unsatisfied he asked another question why only construction equipment industry?? My friend this time recede and now I have to say something, completely unaware of the coming storm I told him that I like the hydraulics technology that is used in these machines. But this time the lion roared, he pointed that the hydraulic thing can be done with a pump at your home; talking in a manner as it is no big deal for him, I was astound and decided will not say anything except "Aap sahi keh rahe hai". He then moved towards our sir, first made him to listen what he thought of "verbosity v/s dogs" and then asked various questions on machine specifications after few minutes he decided to pull our legs again. Asked a new question what does an engine do?? My decision was firm and I didn't even look at him and my friend has to answer him he told him that an engine convert chemical energy into mechanical energy and provide drive and power. As usual we were wrong, he said " Power to generator deta hai engine ka kaam to ghumana hai wo to bas ghumata hai har chiz ko". My friend looked at me and I said "sahi keh rahe hai". After this both of us use the same incantation to avoid further replying to him and getting our basic totally ripped off. Finally, we came out from his office and our sir asked us "batao kya sikha?". And I said "Customer is always RIGHT".

Joie de Vivre

“Lying on the green meadows, watching the clear blue sky, feeling the fresh cool breeze and living the moment.”An indelible experience in Himalayan trek, which reminds me of my childhood days. It is not that I spent my childhood in Himalayas but my hometown - Sarni complements me with the same felicities and pleasures.

I still remember those primary school days when I went to school by a bus and always took the window seat. And that lad got amazed and blissed out every time he looked out of the window and saw the mountain, trees, greenery, and felt the fresh breeze. Sometimes during spring season when I woke up I found the mountain peak disappeared and then slowly clouds unveil it. Observing different kinds of birds and listening to their melodious chirping, just sitting quiet and hearing the sound of wind, sleeping on the green grass of courtyard in the winter’s noon…. And many more of such activities I used to did during my childhood. But as I grew up and left sarni I was no longer able to connect myself with nature. But this trip to uttarkashi and the Himalayan trek remind me of my memories and revived my bond with the nature.

 At sarni I always found nature as my nurturer, it always kept me refreshed and poised. Sarni is not a place where you live with nature but rather you create a bond with it, it become a part of your life and slowly you will find that nature resides in you…

(P.S.: As I was out of ideas for writing something for blog one person suggested me to write something on Sarni i.e. my hometown. Although initially I wasn’t able to collect any thoughts but that person along with the Himalayan trek helped me to go back into my childhood days. Just wanna say Thanks to that person, you gave me a wonderful idea :) )

TRUE VALUE

Today when I woke up the sun has already risen; it was 9:00 am in the morning. I finished my daily chores and then checked my email for any updates. For some time I tried to shirk my appetite as I don’t want to step out in that sweltering atmosphere, but in no time I realized that I can’t took it anymore and I decided to have some breakfast at 10:30 am.

Well I wasn’t aware of the fact that I am going to learn a new lesson when I will be finish with the breakfast thing.

So I took a quick bath, get dressed and took my wallet. Suddenly a thought came into my mind and I checked my wallet to see the amount in it. And ooops!! I have a single 500 rupees note; I forgot to get it changed with 100 rupees yesterday. “It’s ok, no problem I will get it changed now” that’s what I said to myself. So I went straight to a shop nearby whose shopkeeper knows me well enough and would help me with this change problem, but no luck the shop was closed. Then I went to the place where I took my daily meals and the restaurant was opened also. I went inside the waiter recognized me; I asked him the same question regarding the change of 500 rupees and he replied “sahab abhi saith ji nahi aye hai wo to 11:30 tak ate hai tabhi khulle ho payenge. Aap kaho to samne chai ki dukan pr puch lu?” Although I knew that I am not going to get the change at a tea shop still I moved my head in affirmation. And as I thought he came back and said “inke pass bhi khulle nahi hai sahab”. I thanked him for his efforts and told him that I will get them changed from some other place. So I thought for a moment and started to move in the direction of auto stand. I reached and asked the same to one of the auto rickshaw driver and he replied “bhaiya ajkal to mehengai itni chal rahi hai ki 500 rupye dekhe zamana ho gaya khulle kaha se denge.” That’s sound plausible, so next checkpoint a nearby Xerox shop usually they have changes as per my previous experiences. So I hasten to that shop asked the same and the reply was “nai hai baiya, abhi ek ko khulle paise diye.” “Still one option” I said to myself and went to a general store and asked for some snacks and chocolates which actually I didn’t require but had to so that I could have my breakfast. I ordered enough stuff so that the sum turned out to be 50 rupees. I gave “The 500 Rupees Note” to the shopkeeper and he said “bhaiya khulle dijiye” I replied “nai hai baiya” then he said “are bhaiya ab 50 rupye k liye 500 k khulle thodi ho payenge aap khulle krwa k le aiye” I didn’t said anything to him and walked out of the shop. Now the only option left was to walk one and a half km in scorching hot weather to withdraw money from an ATM machine. Although day before yesterday there was a problem in that machine as it was giving only 500 rupees note but still I went up there and I was lucky enough to finally get “The 100 rupees Note”. I looked for the time it was 11:00 a.m., it took me half hour to become able to have my breakfast. Then I went to a famous breakfast shop nearby had my breakfast. After that I asked him how much I have to pay for the breakfast he added the amounts and told me to pay 25rupees I gave him the 100 rupees note and he said the same statement asking the change of 100 rupees, but this time I had the upper hand so he had to gave me the remaining of the money, i.e. the change.

What I learnt is “The TRUE VALUE”, the true value in case of the money is not the figure printed on the currency note but actually it is the happiness and satisfaction it can give to you. And second thing is you realize the true value of something when you lack them. Like in my case I realized the value of a 100 rupees note at the time when I lacked it and that value is indeed higher as compared to that of 500 rupees note at the point of time. Well thanks to Science and Technology we have ATM machine which gave me the replacement of 100 rupees note that I was lacking. But there is one thing of which even the technology can’t give you the replacement and that thing is OUR RELATIONSHIPS. Our parents, family members, friends… and the list goes on, these relations are truly invaluable so never let them move out of your pocket because you will never get their replacement.

To all my school and college friends whom friendship is my TRUE VALUE

Reminiscence

                                 

8 Years. Not a short period of time, when I came here I was in class 10^th. I came to this place because my mother got transferred from Sarni – the place where I grew up. My brother was upset when he heard the news that we have to go to Bhopal, and so am I, but I don’t know how I gathered the strength to hide that feeling and instead took it as a positive turn for my life.

Finally we came to Bhopal. I have never lived in an apartment like this before, which have Chetak Bridge in its neighborhood and a workshop in its premises along with a railway line guarding one of its boundaries. This place is completely antithesis to Sarni, to what I like. Still anyhow I avoid all these anomalies of the place and started to live here. One or two days after we shifted my parents took us for admission as already decided my brother got admission in K.V. – 3 the same school in which my mother has been transferred to but since the school was new at that time, they didn’t have any class 10^th so my parents took me to K.V. – 1. At K.V. – 1 my first encounter was with Das Gupta madam, who was PGT Physics and also the in charge of admission department. After a long discussion she allotted me section C. Immediately my mother took me to the class. At that time Bio class was going on and Thakur Sir was teaching the students in his peculiar style in which he spoke the words “What and Right” almost 2 times in a sentence. He let me in and had a small chat with my parent. In the meantime I occupied the first bench at extreme left corner. Siddhartha Singh was sitting next to me. That day Praveen Sinha and Sachin Nema were absent. Manu Dixit and Kazim Khan was sitting behind us. Asif Anwar Qureshi was sitting on the first bench directly facing the teacher. Aditya Paudar, Aditya Nigam, Punit Tiwan, Himanshu Pandey and Prateek were sitting behind Asif (that’s what I guess as I didn’t remember exactly). From that day my new life started. During my mathematics tuition I met with Sooraj Prakash. He was also from K.V. – 1 but was in section A.

I have told you about my bio class. Now, it is time to take a look at some other subjects also. Nayak sir taught us Physics, and if someone asks me to describe him in 1 word I would say Totally Cool. He too has a favorite phrase “Hum bata rahe hai na, tum bas yeh kar lo yahi exam me ayega” no matter whether it was in the exam or not. Jasmine Quadir madam was our chemistry teacher, well don’t have much of the memories of her. V.R.S. Chaturvedi sir taught us English and I remembered he published a book on grammar also at that time. One of my favorite teachers was L.R. Sharma sir, he taught us Mathematics. He was an old man very polite, soft spoken and an excellent teacher. Asif used to chat with him like he was chatting with his friend. Our social science teacher wasn’t look social at first glance, she was a disciplined lady who wanted students to work harder and harder always, and was very much concerned with the map thing. We had one more teacher for social science particularly for History; A.K. Jain sir taught us that. He was also a teacher with incredible knowledge of the subject, but sometime he misspelled some of the words which gave us a chance to laugh after his class. Our Hindi teacher was our class teacher also, and like me K.V. – 1 was a new school to her too as at that time she recently been transferred to the school. Rita Chowdhary madam was like a mother to the class, she gave personal attention to every student, listened to their problem always and as we tease our mother often we did the same whenever we weren’t in the mood of studying. Most of the time our class captain Raghu Sharma who was an awesome basketball player brought some serious issue in front of madam and time passed out in debating on that.

Time was passing pretty fast and obviously I was happy from everything which I had achieved so far in this new place, along with my new friends and a totally new life. And like that class 10^th passed on.

So now I was in class 11^th, a year has passed and now I had many new friends. But it’s time to see some more new faces. Some from our own school but were studying in different sections and some are from other schools. Anshul Rawat, Arnav Malviya, Sooraj Prakash, Ashish Vijayvargiya, Nikhil Jain,Omprakash Rajput, Varun Tyagi,  Gaurav Rathore Shivkant Soni, Ankita Singhai, Paridhi Patni, Pallavi Barrange, Aishwarya Singh, Meenal Saxena, Swarna Murthy, Chetna Pandagre, Shaifali Sheemar were few of them who joined the Section B of class 11^th along with me and my friends. Anmol Bohre joined our company in 12^th class. (With time I might have forgotten many names that were in our class and were my friends).

And after having a class teacher like Rita Chaowdhary madam it’s time to have a strict chemistry teacher Bhavna Jaiswal madam as our class teacher. Well, in reality Bhavna madam is also a polite and gentle lady as my other teachers but she has to be strict in the class. Since my childhood I heard from nearly everyone “10^th k baad 11^th me bahut dikkat ati hai” why?? I was unaware till that time, but was going to realize the same. It was not actually difficult it was different. Well during this year we had a new set of teachers, Bhavna madam taught us chemistry and every student attended her class attentively because if she found someone not paying attention she said without looking at him/her directly “Beta madam ne apko aisa bataya hai kya??” whatever the case may be she was an excellent teacher. For physics we had Das Gupta madam, ya the same. For mathematics we had Qureshi sir, although most of the students found his style monotonous but he was a dexterous teacher. V.K. Misra sir taught us English, well he was a fan of one of the girls from our class, my school friends knew whom I am talking about. 11^th class passed on quickly. In this class Arnav Malviya became a good friend of mine as both of us went K.V. Bairagarh for regional science exhibition. I never realized when I reached class 12^th. And I was in such obfuscation till the end of class 12^th that I wasn’t able to figure out which was more important school or coaching. Time moved swiftly and we got our farewell from our school.

And today, after a half decade, I am missing my school life again. During these years I either with my friends or alone visited the school, approached my teachers, participated in a self organized alumni party, did almost everything just to revive my school life.

The truth is we always love our past, no matter whatever mistakes we have committed; our past is always full of beautiful moments which we can treasure. But we never sense them until we look back. And when you look back you try to live those moments again. Sometimes you start doing all those activities which you did in the past just in order to live again, but doesn’t work. You can’t live your life again, you just can Reminisce it.

To all my honorable teachers and awesome school friends who made my journey full of fun and happiness, and it will remain in my memories forever.

Just ME

LOVING IS A FEELING THAT BRINGS BOTH JOY AND PAIN TO MY HEART. JOY FROM BEING WITH YOU, BEING FILLED WITH AN EMOTION SO DEEP AND TENDER THAT NO OTHER FEELING CAN COMPARE. PAIN FROM KNOWING THAT I AM SO IN LOVE THAT I AM MORE VULNERABLE THAN I HAVE EVER.

“I was and never will in LOVE.” This am what I thought and honestly speaking I was going well, as always deny for romantic and emotional movies and novels. But this morning the streak ends. More specifically it doesn’t end but just got a bump on the way.

Albeit I knew the story and the characters of the movie, I still watched it while eating self cooked sandwiches at lunch. Well after finishing that 2 hours movie I reacted normally like others who already watched that movie.... I cried. This wasn’t a problem if I cried for a minute or so but tears fell for half an hour continuously, with short gasps. After I finish up with this lachrymose act I found myself in obfuscation. Indubitably “Marley and Me” is a wonderful movie, but Marley (the dog in the movie, who died in the end) wasn’t my dog, I never met him, then why I was crying so badly....

After a long thought I was able to unveil my obscure mind, I was whimpering because it really hurts when someone left you alone stranded on the journey of your life. And if that someone is the one who doesn’t care whether you are rich or poor, clever or dull, smart or dumb but is ready to give his/her heart, it makes you feel rare, pure and special. You not just lost them but lost your identity too.

 Definitely I cannot fall in love within 2 hours, probably love is always inside me and Marley has just evoked it. And that is what I realize it is not that love is not meant for me, I just don’t want to be meant for love. Because the biggest problem with LOVE is 

“The greater your capacity to love,

The greater your capacity to feel the pain” - Jennifer Aniston.

My First Interview

After a long time I have got something to share. Although this could be posted a week earlier but as usual “Mera mann nahi tha”. But someone remind me that I should write something on my blog no matter whatever the case may be, so here it is…..

The day was 20^th September, 2010 just a normal day in Delhi, was raining pretty hard, cars and traffic jams were everywhere. I was sophisticatedly dressing myself in formals (although forgot the tie). After dressing I looked at my wrist watch it was 8:15 hrs. And then my Buaji called me “Cherry have your breakfast first” I had no appetite but don’t even want to deny the home cooked meal (as mostly miss it). So after having my breakfast I was all set for the mission for which I undergone lots of phases of mental tension and dilemma. The mission of getting rejected in a company’s interview…….   

Yes that was primarily my aim, but not from the day 1 when I gave my name for this company. At that time the aim was definitely to get selection, but as time passes something happened and I started thinking that I should rather leave this company. Well, the reason being somehow someone leaked the information regarding a company which is not just better than this one but is BEST in its field, and that field is one of my area of interests. And as per our college’s placement policy if I get selected in any company I have to wait till 80% of my classmates didn’t get the job. Well the company which has the sobriquet as “Daddy Company” and for which I was trying to avoid my first decision: Telcon (TATA – Hitachi) was NTPC. Big name isn’t it.

So, I with my uncle was going to the Telcon’s office for the selection proceedings (which included a technical + aptitude written test, a group discussion and a technical interview). Well, I have to reach the office at 9:30 a.m. but due to traffic jams I got half an hour late. And that was something which I really don’t want to do, obviously I was going for rejection but like this is something after which I can’t even say “yaar maine to poori koshish kari thi, unhe knowledge pasand nahi ayi to kya kar sakte hai?”. Well, as I move out of the car I was thinking about my 9 other friends who were also there for the interviews as they had called me twice during my way to the office. But to my surprise I saw a bunch of guys who were not from our college…. I hurriedly went inside the office and on the sofa I found my 9 MANITians, I asked “kitne aye hai be?” as I realized that we were not alone who were called for the placements on the same day. Avinash answered “60 hai bhai, poora north aya hai haq mangne”. Well it was a good thing for me as now it would be pretty easy to get rejected in first round itself, but suddenly my inner voice said “Buddy if you are not gonna compete among these 6 NITs how you can even think of Off Campus competition which have whole nation ,FYI NTPC is awesome but… you to know that during On Campus interviews it always call for Top 3 in general for the interviews, sorry to say dude but you are 8^th in the class where you gonna throw remaining 5, PLUS if you are going to avoid this job your next company will going to avoid you – Nature’s Rule laddie.” Sort of lecture hmmm…..

Well the presentation of the company begins and as the HR. brought attention towards the salary and perks I realized that I should get selected in this company. As the income is handsome PLUS after 1 year of training the hike in it is awesome also I will get a chance to visit the head office of Hitachi for training in Hydraulics (also one of my favorite), which is in Japan, it has a brand of TATA and most important a perk which no other company gives this company Telcon is giving it twice, yes they are giving a Honeymoon Package…

So thank god before the start of the written test I had made up my mind that I want to get in this company, although I wasn’t tensed as you know NTPC was yet to come.

So the written test began and what I saw is the paper was of really good quality but without negative marking and we have to solve 80(60 technical and 20 aptitude) questions in 1 hour. I give my best with whatever I had from my few days preparations, and left everything else for fate. Well I got selected in written and then group discussion but the interview panel made me to wait quite long for the interviews as I was the second last guy to face the interview. Well, nothing serious happened in the interview as the guy was asking me question from my favorite subjects but was just trying to trap me. Some questions were really awesome and I tried my best to answer them correctly but couldn’t get the perfect.

Unlike other companies I don’t had to wait much for the results as they were announced within half an hour after my interview. And as the HR. called my name, with a smile I congratulate myself that now I have a Job…

(P.S.: Although still waiting for the joining letter, hope to receive soon. And ya I had a medical test also the next day and that was really a fantastic experience as the receptionist was pretty interesting and…….)   

Campus Rumpus

Seems like PRESENT has gained some pace, time is slipping away with celerity and FUTURE has arrived before…..

Campus drive has started in our college with the first company for Mechanical being India Bulls Power. Although the company is surely a pro in retail sector but a tyro in power sector. And that is the reason why unlike company’s HR the income and job profile weren’t so beautiful. Still some students gave it a try. And company selected 2 from Mechanical and 6 from Civil (as expected, because the most recent project is still in erecting phase) at an annual package of 3.5 lacs. The selection procedure consists of 2 written tests, aptitude and technical clearing which a candidate had to appear for the interview.

The interview phase was really exciting even though I wasn’t giving the interview I still was there in the training and placement area just in order to feel the heat. And I think the heat really burnt me out. You can see the tension by just having a glimpse of perilous visage of the candidates. They all were trying to remain cool and calm till the end.

Well the other 69 Mechies are still waiting for their placements; let’s see when we are going to get chance….

Moving Back into Track

After a long time I am writing, not just because I was busy in my grueling industrial training which ran for 6 long weeks and neither due to a function at home rather I was not so agog to write anything. Well, such thing usually happens with those who live alone, you psyche out due to some reason and then you lose track. And it takes some time to bring you back in the right form.

Albeit I haven’t been able to express my feelings, I had a really good time. I met with all of my cousins after a long time, I am able to complete my long training with an overall gain, and most importantly I was able to bid adieu my two best friends (who have left Bhopal once and for all) although this wasn’t so good but the good thing was actually hidden in the enjoyment we all did for the last time (so assumed). And whenever I will reminisce this event one thing will surely comes into my mind, so called by my friend As…if “The Perilous Fountain”. Well, it wasn’t a thing which I should discuss in detail but in short I was about to die. We all were discussing the physics behind a sudden change in the lineament of a fille whom we all knew, and suddenly I slipped away and found myself in the danger, fortunately I came to senses in right time and nothing serious happened. In spite of all this I really love that event (doesn’t mean that I want it again), but it was something new and that to a level I have never been before.

So far much happened in life, now my college’s final year has begun and the same campus rumpus is going to start soon probably in few days. Hope that I will not loose track again……

ARRIVEDERCI PALS

Today when I look back it appears as if I have finished my school yesterday and get into a college. Although 4 years have passed since I last attended my school,but I never felt it the way I am feeling it right now, reason being for last 4 years I surely have left school but not SCHOOL FRIENDS. I can always see them around me, near me. But now this all is coming to an end. By the end of this month (or may be by the end of next month) everyone will be far away from each others reach. We will be incognizant of when we are going to meet again, unaware of when we are going to listen the same vivacious voices.......

The end of this fantastic, adventurous era is near and it is inevitable. Obviously, from now onwards we cannot meet each other every time we wish but what we can do is to close our eyes and think of all the beautiful moments we had, which made our life a zest. Well for me it is like living Alone in a strange world(well I should make it clear to everyone that for last 4 years I have been living SINGLE but not ALONE). But, I know my friends will reside always in my heart..........

What I can do is pray that this FRIENDSHIP never ends and MAY THE FORCE BE WITH ALL OF US.
(P.S. click on the Tittle to listen a song dedicated to all my parting friends)

Happy Mother's Day

A small poem to a special person without whom I didn't even have my identity.

I received sentience in her laps,

As if awoke from an aeon nap.

She is the one, whom I watched day and night,

Yes, I believe I was in LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT.

I kept on calling her name,

As she is my world and my fame.

Because of her I perceived this lovely nature,

As Love, Kindness and Caresses are all parts of her beautiful feature.

My success makes her feel proud,

And she can identify me in lot of crowd.

Her love and care enriched me with zest,

And after that I can maneuver the strongest tempest.

Her happiness is my shine,

And it makes my life properly align.

I know this is tacit, but she is my life’s important hue,

Mamma I love You.

First Love Letter

Finally majors are over (almost……viva are still left) and I was cleaning my cupboard. Yes, it’s true something special came up, because it is then only when I bother about my room’s appearance and aesthetics. It was a phone call…….from my PARENTS. They are coming after some days for some purpose (as this is not the thing I am trying to emphasize on) So, I was cleaning my cupboard and there I found my diary. I just started reading it to have a glance at my past work. And then I came across a poem I had written for a girl. I still remember that day-

Her birthday was coming after few days and I had no idea what I should give her as a gift? So I decided to write a poem for her, as I was moving away from the place because holidays were over, so I just handed a letter and that poem and told her that it’s her birthday gift. After a while, actually the same day she called me and told me that she loves the poem, and promised me to reply for same……..

This poem reminisce my first Love Letter. May be you want to know who the girl was and what was there in the poem? Well, you will get all answers as soon you finish up reading this post. So the poem goes like this…….

I am in love with a girl, who loves me too,

Didi! Obviously its you.

Didi, do you know, why I love you so much?

Because, you cure all my sorrows in just one touch. 

I just want a small space in your heart,

As you are my sweetheart.

When you hug me I feel like heaven,

And this is the only truth of my life, madam.

You are my true friend,

And always tells me about new trend.

You are always in my dreams,

And always send me in correct stream.

You are my sweet, cute dove,

And the bond between us is full of love.

Shine of our love is my treasure,

And it gives me lots of pleasure.

My heart has full faith from your side,

That my love for you is your pride.

But my mind wants an assurance from you,

That you love me too.

That my permanent address is your “Heart’s core”,

And your emotional brother needs nothing more.

These are not only words but emotions of your son like brother,

Please don’t forget him ever…..

Ineffable

I grabbed my phone, dialed the number and waited for a while……..As the call has yet to be received I found myself engrossed in the remembrances. And suddenly the ring tone came to an end. And I had a talk albeit this should have been done weeks back but still the result seems to be unaltered. My eyes were wet (in happiness) when I end the call.

I was talking with most important persons of my life (and unfortunately after a long time) without of whom my life wouldn’t be full of happiness. If you are thinking I am referring my parents I would say No, reason being I converse with them everyday. Actually I was talking with my Grandparents. And to my expectation they were so happy to hear my voice after a long time and so am I. I realized how much I have been loved by everyone.

Well, I used to talk with them when I was in school but as I grew up I started pretending (to no one else but to myself) that I am busy and have no time to talk. And now I realize that I was never been that busy to made a call of just few minutes. As those few minutes of talk gave them lots of happiness. And for me the feeling is just Ineffable.

So, friends why not call your Grandparents today and talk with them, this will make both of you happier. And you will be able to sense the Ineffable.

A Misplay became a Mess play for me

Seems like life does not want to see me happy, as today I commit one of the deplorable mistake of my life but I don’t meant it to happen. It was all just confusion and my blatant statement because of which I am sitting in my room alone in abjection with my heart full of remorse.
As today in second half we all were sitting in H.E. Lab (Heat Engine Lab) waiting for our professor. I was busy in discussing some matter with one of my friends regarding the money we were going to receive in our first prize(for the paper presentation) also we were pulling leg of a lucky guy who was excited about the T-shirt, he was going to receive as a consolation for coordinators. Suddenly our professor brought his presence in the lab and two of my friends who were initially sitting with me took the desk beside mine and get adjusted there, in the mean time our professor went inside the lab to check the arrangement for the experiment. Now, watching my these two friends I too asked them to accommodate me by stating “Main bhi ana chahta hu” but I was unaware of the fact that the ˝Only girl˝ of our class was also sitting there (as I was unable to see her because of extra large size of that T-shirt guy) and there was not even a space left for any movement. Till, I understood what had happen the intellectuals of my class gave it hype by hooting for the same but this wasn’t the end of it as one of my friends repeated the statement in a manner so that the “Only girl” should have thought that I did it intentionally. And now, I realized that this all has blotted my image in front of a girl (and not just any girl but the “Only girl” of our class). I wish I wouldn’t have thought of sitting with my friends, or would have seen the “Only girl” who was sitting beside the XL T-shirt guy, or wouldn’t have gone to the lab. And I am sure the “Only girl” will not going to leave me unscathed.

Misconception

In life there are times when we face situations where our adeptness fail, our precedents misguide, assumptions contradict and everything seems to be erroneous, and after that you realize that it is all because of a MISCONCEPTION. The misconception may be of any theorem of your subject, of any ritual of your family, any common belief etc. whatever the case is misconception always bring sorrow for you.
Well, I too had many misconceptions in my life, that the angel who always took away my broken milk tooth and give me 5 rupees in return really exist, that my uncle will forget our address if I listen a story in the morning instead of night, cricket is our national game, matter is indivisible (this we all had, as class 6 NCERT taught that), it is impossible to score 80% + in class 11, our chemistry teacher (who was our class teacher also) is really strict and rude (but she wasn’t, she is nice, caring and very helpful person), that you don’t need to advance the spark timing in an S.I. engine if you are using fuel of higher octane number (but you have to advance it to avoid knocking)…… Although there are many misconceptions still left but the one I recently encountered has changed my life (a bit).
After a long time I called one of my best friend who is in Pune pursuing MBA. As I usually badinage with all my best friends I was following the same conventional routine. During the conversation I was trying to jape when I comment that “You never do whatever you say. You always make promises like whenever we are in same city we will meet but you never even tried for the same”
And that’s where my precedent misguided me and my assumptions contradicted and I realized it when I heard a wept reply!!!!! Yes, my friend was crying or was just about to cry (I don’t remember exactly) and I realized that it all happened because of a MISCONCEPTION. I admit my mistake immediately and cleared the air and things became normal again, after that we had some general conversation and then hung up.
Now, the moral part what I have learned from this incident is: 1. If you are calling your best friend after a long time then never make mockery of him/her.
2. This one is very important always remember that “Girls are Emotional and Sentimental” (and never said that they aren’t in front of a girl, as I have done this also in the past……)

Holy HOLI

Finally I celebrated holi at my home town (Sarni); after 3 years, which was like an aeon for me. While reaching home was not that easy as I have to be a part of the waiting game which “Agra-Nagpur Passenger” played on that day. The train reached the station at 10:00 hrs 1hour later than its normal time of advent. The train was crowded in a manner as if it is the only left passenger train for traveling, assuming that others are either goods train or are not so good. Still I didn’t give a cuss about how I am going to reach home? I picked the bogie which stopped right in front of me, pushed myself inside the crowded compartment and brought myself in a comfortable (or so called, comparatively) position. Well it was when my stomach started making squeaks I realized that I forgot to have a breakfast. I found it asinine to leave the train for some food in exchange of my comfortable position. So, I satisfied myself with the Adam’s ale reminding myself that I am going to have delicious ambrosia as soon I reach home. It took me 6 hrs to complete the toughest journey. And after that I reached my home.

On the holy holi day I wasn’t sure of having a holi full of fun and enjoyment as none of my friends showed up. So I was pretty confident that I am not going to play any holi though my laddie had a different opinion as he was interested in all that fun so he insisted me and I as usually acquiesced. And I played one of my best holi of my life with my brother and his friends (though holi could be more holy and awesome if I could celebrate it with some beautiful girls).

So that’s what I learnt from my experience that at any cost you should celebrate HOLI. Well, not exactly the same it is that life always gives you opportunities to hold something beautiful. These beautiful moments are just the adjunct to whatever more beautiful you have asked for, so don’t leave these adjuncts while you are waiting for the prime one. This handful of happiness will make your life full of happiness. So what if I couldn’t celebrate it with any of my friends (especially girls)? I had it with my family and lots of delicious dishes which are enough for me to have an abstemious and amazing HOLI.           

Few days back on the Valentine

I know Valentine's day was on 14 Feb. and I am writing this 3 days after it. But I was so busy that couldn't even got time to access internet.

Well, I think it's better late than never. Actually it's "my first valentine's day with my first valentine". On that day as I woke up I was thinking what I am going to do? Am i going to call or to send a message or something else... I was mused when going to drawing room and was astound to see something special exclusively for me. Yes, it was the consent for which I had waited for so long. I read it many times to made myself believe it  by the time  that piece of paper had captivated my mind so badly I was  unable to listen the sound of running water flowing from the tap. Finally when I awoke from my reverie I took that piece of paper and kept it on its place, thanked the one who brought so much of love for me. By, now I think you must be able to guess the person I am talking about. Well, the person is no one else but me. Don't even try to think bawdy. What I mean to say is that piece or paper was actually a newspaper and I am talking about an article which told that One is Fun. After reading that article I realizes that I don't really need a girlfriend rather I just need myself,my own love, and my friends and that's it. All this is enough to keep myself happy as what I am enjoying is my freedom. I didn't say that my liberty would be fetter if I am have a girlfriend, but what actually girlfriend try to do is to make you a good boy or rather a good beau. They want you to behave as they wish and most of the times not as what you actually are. Well, it is a kind of dicey topic which require more discussion but as my wall clock is showing half past midnight and feeling in a state of run-down I stop this topic here. I hope in future also I am going to have a broach on the same.

"There is No Secret Ingredient"

Well, this should be posted 2 days before, i.e. the time it actually came in my mind. But my illness is responsible for this behindhand. Yet, I don’t think that I am tardy to discuss this. The statement is not just an ordinary dialogue from the movie “Kung-fu Panda” which Po’s dad delivers to him, rather it comprises the SECRET. No, no I am not playing a conundrum. Let me expatiate the thing that it’s actually a blessing in disguise. This is not the first time when I get the bug in my ear but surprisingly second within just 4 weeks.

I am talking about the Secret to succeed it could be, to get a placement in a good company, to be an aficionado, to have your physique same as your favourite actor or to have the most beautiful girl to be your girlfriend. If you think you need some magic or any special ingredient to achieve these I should say SORRY. Because the truth is you need nothing extra. Everything is already there….. Where??? Within YOU i.e. the pre-requisites have already been achieved by you, you just need to ask and believe that’s it. Ask what? Ask for your dream to become reality. Ask whom? The Universe, obviously. As our universe is a perfect reflector having its coefficient of absorptivity zero. Whatever you sow so shall you reap. The universe is similar to the genie of lamp and you are the Aladdin. Whatever be your wish it is a command for genie. Your genie is not going to discriminate between good and bad wishes it’s you who decide your fate. Even this is something that Rhonda Byrne has also explained in her book The Secret. That you should ask for your dreams to come true and then believe, believe your genie, believe yourself. And your dreams will automatically make your path for the journey to achieve your destiny.

I don’t mean that you should engross in reveries throughout the day but believe in your dreams. As your dreams are something that no one can steal. And if you have any dream that means you can achieve it. As God has programmed us in a manner that we never desire for things we don’t deserve, i.e. whatever we desire are actually the things which we deserve or going to deserve. For example it is not everyone who dreamed of flying in the sky but whosoever had it they successfully bring it into reality.

Now, I would like to share few verses of the song of Kung-fu Panda:

                         Although the future

                         Is little bit frightening,

                         It is the book of your life

                         That you’re writing,

                         You’re a diamond in the rough

                         A brilliant ball of clay,

                        You could be a work of art

                         If you just go all the way………

Indeed your thoughts become your things so why not think positive and enlighten your future. And if something wrong happens then……. Then your friends are always there to handle.

Now, as we are moving towards the denouement of this story I think things are now pretty clear. As it is not just important to remember this formula but is also equally important to apply it again and again. Otherwise, you too could get frequent signals from God.

Mercurial feelings

Yet another interesting day passed, full of fun .Nothing much happen in the day time as no classes were held and even my project in charge RG wasn’t feeling fine so he postponed the discussion to next day. While in the evening all of us (me and my friends) gathered to celebrate Sammy’s birthday, had delicious food and after that as usual a“Maghai Pan” made us feel like an epicure. A sort of badinage with each other filled us with felicity. Then the crew made its journey to my home where we talked for a while, examined some of mine exercising tools, discussed various topics regarding project and then bid good night to each other.

Albeit I am happy with them but still I don’t know why sometimes I felt envy of one of my friend while watching him conversing with his girlfriend. Well I too know this is nothing but my ego and I should not allow it to rise, but this egoistic act actuates my emotional mind and then……. I found myself surrounded with lovely but more of scary thoughts of her. “She” is among those few people who understand my feelings, obviously she is my best friend even though we are separated by a distance of more than 186 k.m. she resides somewhere in my heart, and will always.

The day ends in composing an article on My Role Models which includes my parents, my family, my teachers and my friends. As this is going to be my next post.