Finally majors are over (almost……viva are still left) and I was cleaning my cupboard. Yes, it’s true something special came up, because it is then only when I bother about my room’s appearance and aesthetics. It was a phone call…….from my PARENTS. They are coming after some days for some purpose (as this is not the thing I am trying to emphasize on) So, I was cleaning my cupboard and there I found my diary. I just started reading it to have a glance at my past work. And then I came across a poem I had written for a girl. I still remember that day-
Her birthday was coming after few days and I had no idea what I should give her as a gift? So I decided to write a poem for her, as I was moving away from the place because holidays were over, so I just handed a letter and that poem and told her that it’s her birthday gift. After a while, actually the same day she called me and told me that she loves the poem, and promised me to reply for same……..
This poem reminisce my first Love Letter. May be you want to know who the girl was and what was there in the poem? Well, you will get all answers as soon you finish up reading this post. So the poem goes like this…….
I am in love with a girl, who loves me too,
Didi! Obviously its you.
Didi, do you know, why I love you so much?
Because, you cure all my sorrows in just one touch.
I just want a small space in your heart,
As you are my sweetheart.
When you hug me I feel like heaven,
And this is the only truth of my life, madam.
You are my true friend,
And always tells me about new trend.
You are always in my dreams,
And always send me in correct stream.
You are my sweet, cute dove,
And the bond between us is full of love.
Shine of our love is my treasure,
And it gives me lots of pleasure.
My heart has full faith from your side,
That my love for you is your pride.
But my mind wants an assurance from you,
That you love me too.
That my permanent address is your “Heart’s core”,
And your emotional brother needs nothing more.
These are not only words but emotions of your son like brother,
I grabbed my phone, dialed the number and waited for a while……..As the call has yet to be received I found myself engrossed in the remembrances. And suddenly the ring tone came to an end. And I had a talk albeit this should have been done weeks back but still the result seems to be unaltered. My eyes were wet (in happiness) when I end the call.
I was talking with most important persons of my life (and unfortunately after a long time) without of whom my life wouldn’t be full of happiness. If you are thinking I am referring my parents I would say No, reason being I converse with them everyday. Actually I was talking with my Grandparents. And to my expectation they were so happy to hear my voice after a long time and so am I. I realized how much I have been loved by everyone.
Well, I used to talk with them when I was in school but as I grew up I started pretending (to no one else but to myself) that I am busy and have no time to talk. And now I realize that I was never been that busy to made a call of just few minutes. As those few minutes of talk gave them lots of happiness. And for me the feeling is just Ineffable.
So, friends why not call your Grandparents today and talk with them, this will make both of you happier. And you will be able to sense the Ineffable.
Seems like life does not want to see me happy, as today I commit one of the deplorable mistake of my life but I don’t meant it to happen. It was all just confusion and my blatant statement because of which I am sitting in my room alone in abjection with my heart full of remorse. As today in second half we all were sitting in H.E. Lab (Heat Engine Lab) waiting for our professor. I was busy in discussing some matter with one of my friends regarding the money we were going to receive in our first prize(for the paper presentation) also we were pulling leg of a lucky guy who was excited about the T-shirt, he was going to receive as a consolation for coordinators. Suddenly our professor brought his presence in the lab and two of my friends who were initially sitting with me took the desk beside mine and get adjusted there, in the mean time our professor went inside the lab to check the arrangement for the experiment. Now, watching my these two friends I too asked them to accommodate me by stating “Main bhi ana chahta hu” but I was unaware of the fact that the ˝Only girl˝ of our class was also sitting there (as I was unable to see her because of extra large size of that T-shirt guy) and there was not even a space left for any movement. Till, I understood what had happen the intellectuals of my class gave it hype by hooting for the same but this wasn’t the end of it as one of my friends repeated the statement in a manner so that the “Only girl” should have thought that I did it intentionally. And now, I realized that this all has blotted my image in front of a girl (and not just any girl but the “Only girl” of our class). I wish I wouldn’t have thought of sitting with my friends, or would have seen the “Only girl” who was sitting beside the XL T-shirt guy, or wouldn’t have gone to the lab. And I am sure the “Only girl” will not going to leave me unscathed.
In life there are times when we face situations where our adeptness fail, our precedents misguide, assumptions contradict and everything seems to be erroneous, and after that you realize that it is all because of a MISCONCEPTION. The misconception may be of any theorem of your subject, of any ritual of your family, any common belief etc. whatever the case is misconception always bring sorrow for you. Well, I too had many misconceptions in my life, that the angel who always took away my broken milk tooth and give me 5 rupees in return really exist, that my uncle will forget our address if I listen a story in the morning instead of night, cricket is our national game, matter is indivisible (this we all had, as class 6 NCERT taught that), it is impossible to score 80% + in class 11, our chemistry teacher (who was our class teacher also) is really strict and rude (but she wasn’t, she is nice, caring and very helpful person), that you don’t need to advance the spark timing in an S.I. engine if you are using fuel of higher octane number (but you have to advance it to avoid knocking)…… Although there are many misconceptions still left but the one I recently encountered has changed my life (a bit). After a long time I called one of my best friend who is in Pune pursuing MBA. As I usually badinage with all my best friends I was following the same conventional routine. During the conversation I was trying to jape when I comment that “You never do whatever you say. You always make promises like whenever we are in same city we will meet but you never even tried for the same” And that’s where my precedent misguided me and my assumptions contradicted and I realized it when I heard a wept reply!!!!! Yes, my friend was crying or was just about to cry (I don’t remember exactly) and I realized that it all happened because of a MISCONCEPTION. I admit my mistake immediately and cleared the air and things became normal again, after that we had some general conversation and then hung up. Now, the moral part what I have learned from this incident is: 1. If you are calling your best friend after a long time then never make mockery of him/her. 2. This one is very important always remember that “Girls are Emotional and Sentimental” (and never said that they aren’t in front of a girl, as I have done this also in the past……)
Finally I celebrated holi at my home town (Sarni); after 3 years, which was like an aeon for me. While reaching home was not that easy as I have to be a part of the waiting game which “Agra-Nagpur Passenger” played on that day. The train reached the station at 10:00 hrs 1hour later than its normal time of advent. The train was crowded in a manner as if it is the only left passenger train for traveling, assuming that others are either goods train or are not so good. Still I didn’t give a cuss about how I am going to reach home? I picked the bogie which stopped right in front of me, pushed myself inside the crowded compartment and brought myself in a comfortable (or so called, comparatively) position. Well it was when my stomach started making squeaks I realized that I forgot to have a breakfast. I found it asinine to leave the train for some food in exchange of my comfortable position. So, I satisfied myself with the Adam’s ale reminding myself that I am going to have delicious ambrosia as soon I reach home. It took me 6 hrs to complete the toughest journey. And after that I reached my home.
On the holy holi day I wasn’t sure of having a holi full of fun and enjoyment as none of my friends showed up. So I was pretty confident that I am not going to play any holi though my laddie had a different opinion as he was interested in all that fun so he insisted me and I as usually acquiesced. And I played one of my best holi of my life with my brother and his friends (though holi could be more holy and awesome if I could celebrate it with some beautiful girls).
So that’s what I learnt from my experience that at any cost you should celebrate HOLI. Well, not exactly the same it is that life always gives you opportunities to hold something beautiful. These beautiful moments are just the adjunct to whatever more beautiful you have asked for, so don’t leave these adjuncts while you are waiting for the prime one. This handful of happiness will make your life full of happiness. So what if I couldn’t celebrate it with any of my friends (especially girls)? I had it with my family and lots of delicious dishes which are enough for me to have an abstemious and amazing HOLI.
