LOVING IS A FEELING THAT BRINGS BOTH JOY AND PAIN TO MY HEART. JOY FROM BEING WITH YOU, BEING FILLED WITH AN EMOTION SO DEEP AND TENDER THAT NO OTHER FEELING CAN COMPARE. PAIN FROM KNOWING THAT I AM SO IN LOVE THAT I AM MORE VULNERABLE THAN I HAVE EVER.
“I was and never will in LOVE.” This am what I thought and honestly speaking I was going well, as always deny for romantic and emotional movies and novels. But this morning the streak ends. More specifically it doesn’t end but just got a bump on the way.
Albeit I knew the story and the characters of the movie, I still watched it while eating self cooked sandwiches at lunch. Well after finishing that 2 hours movie I reacted normally like others who already watched that movie.... I cried. This wasn’t a problem if I cried for a minute or so but tears fell for half an hour continuously, with short gasps. After I finish up with this lachrymose act I found myself in obfuscation. Indubitably “Marley and Me” is a wonderful movie, but Marley (the dog in the movie, who died in the end) wasn’t my dog, I never met him, then why I was crying so badly....
After a long thought I was able to unveil my obscure mind, I was whimpering because it really hurts when someone left you alone stranded on the journey of your life. And if that someone is the one who doesn’t care whether you are rich or poor, clever or dull, smart or dumb but is ready to give his/her heart, it makes you feel rare, pure and special. You not just lost them but lost your identity too.
Definitely I cannot fall in love within 2 hours, probably love is always inside me and Marley has just evoked it. And that is what I realize it is not that love is not meant for me, I just don’t want to be meant for love. Because the biggest problem with LOVE is
“The greater your capacity to love,
The greater your capacity to feel the pain” -
